Society

And they look at me different

Warning, this post contains themes of Mental Health.

Going to the Partial Hospitalization Program has really got me looking into myself a lot and addressing a lot of the trauma that I have had in my life. It had lead me to express my trauma in many different ways. These three poems were written when I was going through a lot of my trauma as a Korean American immigrant. The first two poems represents my past as a young child and as a teenager. The last poem represents where I am now and how far I have gone.

The water we drink at home I realized was actually tea
And they look at me different
They can’t pronounce my name correctly
And they look at me different
My lunch, lovingly made by my mother who failed to make it look American enough
And they look at me different
They say that my birth nation doesn’t exist because they never heard of it
And they look at me different
I had to grow up with bunk beds in the living room, 3 generations in a tiny house
And they look at me different
We were the only Asian kids in the school and the only Asian family in the neighborhood
And they look at me different
Maybe I am different?

Sophia Lee

Links to all the poems:
1. And they look at me different
2. I do not fit in
3. I will thrive

If you are struggling with Depression, Anxiety or thoughts of suicide, there is help available.
There are various different hotlines that you can call that specializes in people of different locations and identities. Also if you are in the US you can call the National Suicide Hotline at 800-273-8255